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Sunday, August 15, 2010

Good Riddance

It's my last day at the gym..
Can I get an Amen?!
Two hours to go and I'm walking out the door with my nose in
the air as well as my middle finger. hahaha..Just kidding.
I will swallow my pride and walk out like lady, but you all
secretly know what I will be thinking as I do so.
The excitement is overwhelming at times. I have never been
so happy to be leaving somewhere..well on second thought I have. But
thats exactly why I am not willing to settle anymore. I want to be somewhere
that I am happy. Who doesn't though?..
Anyways, I start my two week training at the bank tomorrow bright and early.
Wish me luck.

Cheers to new places, new jobs, new adventures,

Saturday, August 7, 2010

My Inception

Dreaming may in fact be my favorite thing to do.
Preferably the ones when I am sleeping. =]

On the norm my dreams are usually full of made up people,
crazy size mansions,
creepy creatures,
enormous food portions (most commonly pancakes and donuts),
and friends from my childhood. In my dreams I always  know how to fly,
jump to extreme measures,
and tell off any villian that comes my way.
I love that they are completely mixed up places that I don't remember getting to, and skip from place to place so quickly and randomly that seperate dreams throughout the night morph into one. 

Most people hate having nightmares, I just hate waking up in a panic, forehead dripping with sweat, clenching the covers to save your life and then trying to calm yourself down mentally so that your not afraid to fall asleep again;  then once you do calm yourself down, your pissed off the next morning because you lost that extra 25 minutes of sleep that it took to fall asleep again.
But regardless of all that, I love dreaming so much that I don't even mind the nightmares. When I was little I had nightmares a lot. (I blame it on all the scary movies I begged my dad to watch) But whenever I had a nightmare I'd try to remember it & write it down because I thought thats how they come up with scary movies in Hollywood and one day I could submit my nightmare to the Hollywood directors and become rich. I know it sounds funny but it always made me feel better. My favorite dreams are the reoccuring ones though. The ones to you can try to change and manipulate if you realize you are dreaming in time. The past couple of days I have had some of the most unusual dreams. Dreams I have never really experienced before. These dreams are so life-like and real. I am dreaming of people I see and things I do on a regular basis just from day to day life. For example, I had a dream that I was combing my hair and putting it up in bobby-pins. Very simple indeed but when I woke up I was wondering where all my bobby-pins had gone, searching my covers trying to figure out why they had all of a sudden disapeared from my hair.

That was just one dream. As the week progressed, the dreams got deeper and more detailed. Just like in the movies (perticularly inception), I had a dream, that I was dreaming. Now I have had a dream like this before but not one that was so meticulous, in order; & organized. In the first dream I was asleep in bed and I was dreaming of my everyday routine. So when I woke up, I was still asleep. When I woke up for the second time, it literally threw off reality for awhile. I was so turned around and mixed up that I felt like I was loosing my mind a bit. Sounds daunting I know, but it was actually fascinating when I came to to replay what happen in my head. For the first time, in a long time, I was anxious and nervous to fall asleep last night. Sadly this morning I woke up and remembered nothing from my night of restless slumber.

Nevertheless, I have discovered a whole new realm of dreaming. Loosing touch with reality may be the coolest thing ever hahaa.. =]

I dedicate this post to Christopher Nolan and all your
brilliant ideas. (writer and director of Inception)

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Weekend Warrior

It's Saturday.
& as you know,
I am at work.
Normally very unoptimistic about my predicament,
but today is slightly different.
A Man walked in to the gym,
(a Man I see every saturday at 10:00 a.m.)
and said "Hello Penny," with a smile (as he usually did)
"Hello," I reply.
Then he says something that
surprisingly turns my frown upside down.
" Penny, the weekend warrior."
To my amazment this one little comment
meant more to me than apples in applesauce.
Considering I work every single weekend,
Friday, Saturday, & Sunday;
dealing with who knows what complaints
and angry people, drama, people's current crisis issues,
as well as my own.
the term "weekend warrior" meant not only
that this man notices all the craziness I deal with
& try too handle with extreme caution
 every weekend of my life,
but that I also come out on top.
Sometimes all someone needs
is a little recognition.
& that I did.
..Thank you Man.


Thursday, July 29, 2010

A New Chapter

I've been M.I.A for quite some time now, but it’s time to start over new, time to start a new chapter in my life. Things weren't going that great for a while but they are slowly getting better as time goes on. So tomorrow starts a somewhat of a new journey for me. At work I am entrusted with opening my department, it's a major task but I’m looking forward to it. I'm ready to show everyone that I can succeed and I’m ready to take on more responsibility although 6:00 AM isn’t looking like too much fun, but I'm willing to do it to get ahead in my company. The bright side is I get to get off at 3:00, after which I am headed to a job interview, where they serve the best food known to man... PIZZA of course!! I hope I get it...


Sunday, July 25, 2010

Dear Laptop

Dear Laptop,
I'm sorry that you were stolen from my car last night.
I guess I can only be so upset considering I'm the one who left you in there.
I never leave you in the car like that but quite frankly I was too lazy to go get you out.
I called the cops and they are doing everything they can to find you. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you but I'm not going to hold my breath.
But you can't be mad at me laptop because some days you were lazy too. I mean you were sooo slow sometimes. You had no reason to be. I kept you very clean. You should have listened to me when I told you to hurry up. Regardless though, I do apologize for slamming you shut that one day. That was my bad.
I wanted  to say though that if we are not reunited I will miss you a great deal, even if you did act immature at times and wouldn't connect to the internet. You helped me get through so much school and boredem.. sometimes at the same time. Thank you for always helping me with research. We racked up some serious browsing time together didn't we?
Thank you for keeping all my pictures organized and stored for me. Keep them safe. At least you have pictures to remember me by. Thank you for being there with me on lonely days, and rainy days, and sad days. Thank you for all the music sessions we jammed to. Thank you for showing me all those awesome Youtube videos like Charlie and Harry and Kandee Johnson. Thank you those few but special days we blogged together. I will never forget you Laptop. Think of this experience as a "Live & Learn" lesson for the both of us.
Thankfully we did set several passwords...stay strong my friend.

Sincerely Your Owner,

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Well Good Morning to you too Sun.

I do believe that by the end of today I will feel much like an adult. I have many "grown-up" things to attend to. But thankfully I woke up on the right side of the bed and had a plethora of positive energy rush through my body. I woke up not to my annoying alarm but to the sunshine beaming through my bedroom window warming my face. As if it were saying "Penny sweetheart, time to wake up and start a fresh new day..."
Hopefully work today doesn't have to many unfortunante surprises. Of course there will be the usual customer complaints to deal with and the employee drama. But people in the work force deal with that at any job I assume.
Regardless I'm crossin' my fingers for a good one.

So happy Saturday to you. I hope everyone has a great day enjoying the weather, summer, friends, family, or to-do lists like myself wherever you are. Know that you are never dealt anything you can't handle. If you feel that life at the moment is just too stressful remember to stop and take a nap everyonce in awhile. =]

Love and Sunshine,

Saturday, July 17, 2010

If Stress Burned Calories I'd Be a Supermodel

It's amazing how things are happening one right after the other. If I didn't have Jazzy and T.j. at this point I don't know how mentally crazy I would be. It's 10:46 a.m. on a Saturday morning, and as you all know I am at work, which at this point is the best place for me to be. (Hopefully I didn't just jinx myself.) This morning my Aunt found a note I had written and instead of putting it down and walking away, she read it. In her situation I probably would have read it too. Many painfully detailed words later, she is very upset with me and I use upset as an understatement. My meaningless.. thoughtless words were takin to heart. Never can I get a word in edge wise and to my misfortune she listens to the ones that meant the least. It is probably a good thing I am already planning on moving out..otherwise it would be my butt on the street. So nervous as to whats going to happen when I get home.. sick to my stomach.
Today is the first day ever that I have been threatened by a male. Aparently I don't do my job the way members would like me too. Seems lately everything I do is lacking. Trembling by the time he is done ranting on about how horrible I am to say the least. I feel like I'm on a treadmill that is going way to fast for me to run. Speaking of treadmills going to fast..the sweetest lady fell off one of our treadmills today. OF ALL SHIFTS FOR HER TO FALL. I felt horrible. I didn't know what I should do, feeling very negligent and useless. Thankfully she was nice about the perdicament, but regarless of what she says, it doesn't look good for me. It's my responsibility to keep an eye on the members. And I was too busy worrying about my Aunt to realize what was happening. Filed an incident report.

..I should have known this day was out to get me when I woke up and it was practically winter outside.