Well Good Morning to you too Sun.

I do believe that by the end of today I will feel much like an adult. I have many "grown-up" things to attend to. But thankfully I woke up on the right side of the bed and had a plethora of positive energy rush through my body. I woke up not to my annoying alarm but to the sunshine beaming through my bedroom window warming my face. As if it were saying "Penny sweetheart, time to wake up and start a fresh new day..."

Hopefully work today doesn't have to many unfortunante surprises. Of course there will be the usual customer complaints to deal with and the employee drama. But people in the work force deal with that at any job I assume.

Regardless I'm crossin' my fingers for a good one.

So happy Saturday to you. I hope everyone has a great day enjoying the weather, summer, friends, family, or to-do lists like myself wherever you are. Know that you are never dealt anything you can't handle. If you feel that life at the moment is just too stressful remember to stop and take a nap everyonce in awhile. =]

Love and Sunshine,

Pen

If Stress Burned Calories I'd Be a Supermodel

...hmmm.

Home

It's amazing how things are happening one right after the other. If I didn't have Jazzy and T.j. at this point I don't know how mentally crazy I would be. It's 10:46 a.m. on a Saturday morning, and as you all know I am at work, which at this point is the best place for me to be. (Hopefully I didn't just jinx myself.) This morning my Aunt found a note I had written and instead of putting it down and walking away, she read it. In her situation I probably would have read it too. Many painfully detailed words later, she is very upset with me and I use upset as an understatement. My meaningless.. thoughtless words were takin to heart. Never can I get a word in edge wise and to my misfortune she listens to the ones that meant the least. It is probably a good thing I am already planning on moving out..otherwise it would be my butt on the street. So nervous as to whats going to happen when I get home.. sick to my stomach.

Work

Today is the first day ever that I have been threatened by a male. Aparently I don't do my job the way members would like me too. Seems lately everything I do is lacking. Trembling by the time he is done ranting on about how horrible I am to say the least. I feel like I'm on a treadmill that is going way to fast for me to run. Speaking of treadmills going to fast..the sweetest lady fell off one of our treadmills today. OF ALL SHIFTS FOR HER TO FALL. I felt horrible. I didn't know what I should do, feeling very negligent and useless. Thankfully she was nice about the perdicament, but regarless of what she says, it doesn't look good for me. It's my responsibility to keep an eye on the members. And I was too busy worrying about my Aunt to realize what was happening. Filed an incident report.

..I should have known this day was out to get me when I woke up and it was practically winter outside.

Pen

Work

..and it's only going to get worse.

Have you ever felt like this?

At some point in time everyone does.

I am currently at work..as it feels is a very common place for me to be. And I am trying to do an online

interview so that I can get a second job. Why do I need a second job you ask?

So that I can move into an apartment with my sister Jaz. It's all fine and dandy except for the fact that Jaz and I have almost exactly one month to find an affordable (and cute =] ) apartment, enough money saved to afford the move in fee ( and a cool couch of course ), second jobs for the both of us (which means more time working and less time for my summer to do list =[ ), and trying to make sure life doesn't get in the way.

Well roughly 30 days and counting.

..gotta get back to work just got yelled at by the boss man! BYE

Pen

Molasses on Ice Slow

Do you ever feel like you are constantly trying to catch up,

and for a couple weeks, you just can't.

I have learned that sometimes you have to let everything and everyone pass you up to get ahead again.

Sorry for the lack of postings.

There really is no excuse, but between work, family drama, conventions, car breaking down, and one very importnant funeral, Jaz and I have been..well a bit preoccupied.

 I hope that starting today, things get back on track; knowing our lives though, it won't. I will just have to start carrying my laptop around with me like Paris Hilton carries around her dog. Then there will be a countless number of postings for everyone to keep up on. =]

At least the weather has been nice. 85+ degrees for the past week now. NIIIIcce! LOve'n it.

Which reminds me. I need to get focussed on the summer to do list.

 I find that I always get a slow start on things.

Slower than molasses on ice. But in the end the tortoise always wins the race..

Pen

Sumr 2-do's

I thought to myself earlier this mornin' while reading a fellow followers blog, that I too am very excited for summer and should start thinking about livin' life outside more while we all have the great weather for the next couple months. My past couple of summers haven't been all that fantastic and I am officially on a mission to make this summer one to remember! Heres my current check list for the summer of 2010.

..I'll be danged if I don't get every item checked off this list! To all our super lovely Tweed followers feel free to tell me about your summer to-do's..

1. Eat popsicles!-

2. Sleep outside-

3.Water gun fight-

4. BBQ's-

5. Make lemonade-

6. Saturday Market-

7. Eat down by the water front-

8. The Beach-

9. Water balloon pranks!-

10. Take Jazzy to the river-

11. Lay in the sun-

12. Swing at a playground-

13. Outdoor movie-

14. The Coast-

15. Lots of ice cream!-

16. Have cousins come stay-

17. Have a picnik-
18. Go to the Zoo!-

19. Plant flowers-

20. Fly a Kite-

21. Pull all nighters-

22. Climb a jungle gym-

23. Drink arizonas-

24. Ride with the top down in Jazzy's car-

25. Poker Party-

26. Buy a jug of Bubbles!-

27. Movie Marathon-

28. Make smoothies-

29. Root beer floats-

32. Sidewalk Chalk!-

33. Make new summer playlist-

34. Make Mom's Macaroni Salad-

Can't wait to begin the list. Happy summer adventures to all!..

Pen

The Happiest Place On Earth

California Adventure

The Tower of Terror (my favorite ride)

Disneyland's Famous Lollipops

Bert, Snow White's Evil Queen, Mary Poppins

Who wouldn't be happy here?

My trip was so amazing. I met so many different characters this time, made it on every ride in the park, bought tons of good food, and of course the famous lollipops for everyone at home, took 100's of pictures, my family and friends were so great, and everyone got along the entire time..

I wish I could say that was all true.

Sadly that is the farthest from the truth.

The trip I went on this past week has officially made it in the Guinness book of world records as the worst trip to disneyland ever. Now that I am home and the experience is behind me, I quite frankly can't believe it happened. Here is the "short" version of what went down.

Day 1

I met a friend..more like an acquaintance at her job Sunday night. Drove her car to southern Oregon. Six hours later met up with my mom and little sister, mom's new boyfriend which is "the acquaintance" father (ugh shoot me now), and my little sister's BFF.

So far so good.

Day 2

6 a.m. headed out the door for southern California.  Redbull check, chexmix check, pillow check, ipod (just in case) check. L.A. here we come! One hour into the trip begins the arguing. Mom's boyfriend and "the acquaintance" yelling nonsense back and forth from the front of the SUV to the back. What are they yelling at each other you say?.. A bunch of words not appropiate for this blog. Why are they mad at each other you ask? Let's just say difference in opinion, father and daughter history, and "the acquaintance" is an incredibly immature 19 year old female. Naturally this led her to tears and more tears.

The rest of the 13 hour drive was painfully awkward, tense, unusually silent, and flat out boring!

Day 3

Arise from the hotel bed. Horrible back ache. Perfect for the day ahead of me walking in Disneyland all day. "The acquaintence and mom's new boyfriend made that day very un-fun. (Yes I made that word up) Disagreeing on everything known to man, putting the rest of us in a frusterating postion. No one could agree on anything about anything. Ready to go home three days into the trip I decided from here on out to keep my wants and needs of  Disneyland to myself and let all the other piranhas fight it out.

Day 4

Exhausted and ready to punch someone. "The acquaintance" and I decided to head to the Disneyland parade that night on our own and let the rest of the bunch go to dinner without us. We all needed some seperation. Me from my mother, her from her father.  Here is where I kick myself. Now why would I leave with this "acquaintance" knowing her ability to bite someone mid-sentence? I thought that me, being the other 19 year old, she would try to bond with me a little more than she had with the others. In an ironic way, she did just that. Making my story less detailed. This crazy 19 year old  wanted to leave me in downtown L.A. by myself, for three guys she met that  night for some party they were having. You can bet that I had some words to say. And yes the piranha bit. A huge fight broke out and "the acquaintance" and I were no longer down for bonding.

I rode a bus back to the hotel alone.

Day 5

She never came home that night. Making day five of our trip awkward, tense, silent, tearful, and un-fun..again.

So many thoughts went through my head to buy a plane ticket home and never look back. But being the nice person that I am I was worried about her that whole day in Disneyland. Wondering if she was okay. Hoping she wouldn't end up on one of those "lost and never found" T.V. shows or one of those murder mysteries. We all felt guilty for still going to disneyland, but what were we to do? She wouldn't answer our calls and we had no idea where she had gone. I felt bad for letting her go. Could I have done more to stop her?

When we returned to the hotel later that night, there she was sitting in living room watching t.v.

"Hey guys! how was disneyland today?!"

Everyone responded in happy little voices and greeted her like nothing had happend.

I was astonished and pissed off at the same time.

Day 6

Thousands of rude comments made to me by "the acquaintance". Again words I can not put in this blog.

Let's just say I am so incredibly proud of myself for taking the high road and not biting back. I took it like a champ. =] Regardless though, it still hurt, not her comments, but that my own mother was sitting right there listening to every single one, and had nothing to say in my defense.

Told mother I was leaving. And ending my portion of the trip early, whether I had to buy a ticket home or rent a car or having someone pick me up. Where theres a will theres a way. I was coming home.

Drove back to southern Oregon in the wonderful SUV where I got to sit next to "the piranha" for 13 hours listneing to little snickets in my ear.

Once we got to mom's boyfriends house. I grabbed my mother's car keys to her Outie, through my suitcase in the back seat. And headed towards Portland at 85 miles per hour. Luckily I had my girl Beyonce to keep me company.

Day 7

Slept all through the night, in my own bed, drool and all. Glad to be home.

I learned the the happiest place on earth is not Disneyland, but it's where your true family and friends are, where you feel the safest, where you can sleep at night, where you always have fun

...lollipops or no lollipops.

Penelope

When Someone You Love...

What feelings and emotions your brain and heart go through when someone you love dies. I think about the moments we shared together, the moments when we laughed together. Falling asleep in her arms as she softly combed my hair, painting my nails outside on a warm sunny day, buying me clothes for a special event, or just because  she loved me, playing cards in the backyard, going on road trips to some place that will mean so much to me later on in life, driving with the top down with her newly curled hair and beautiful dress on with sunglasses to match. She would tell me that everything will be ok when things seemed to be the worst. The moments I shared with her will never be forgotten forever she will remain in my heart and in my mind. I have many more memories and fun times that I spent with her each of them meant so much to me. I will cherish them and forever love her. She was truly an amazing woman.

Jazelle
P.S. I will always love you Grandma