One Crazy Night

Woke up this morning at 8:30, ready to start my day, after last night’s fiasco I can only hope that today will be better... Speaking of last night Pen gave you a taste of what happen to us, believe me it was anything but fun, adventurous but not fun. But not all was bad the evening started out great got off from work early and met up with Jamal to do a little bit of exercising we walked together around the track and then I watched him run a mile while I sat on the swings, he came back just in time to watch the sun set with me.

                          The start of what I thought was going to be a great evening... Got back home everyone undecided about what we wanted for dinner because we all had a taste for one thing, SEAFOOD. As the night grew long we decided on Applebee’s but when we got there it was packed but as we were driving I got a tooth ache I thought I was going to die I was in so much pain pulsating gums I felt like my head was going to explode from all the pain I was in. So we get to Applebee’s and there's nowhere for us to park I mean come on people Applebee’s on a Friday night no game on nothing exciting on and everyone in the state of Washington decided to go (including us) By now I thought my face was going to explode, we accepted the fact that last night was just not our night we settled for fast food and Tylenol (which helped with easing the pain of my tooth) on the way home we ran into to more trouble that sent us on an emotional rollercoaster which turned out ok in the end. Jazzy went home and Jamal came over and watched movies with me until I fell asleep... Today the sun is shining it’s going to be 82 we can only enjoy the day 1 minute at a time and hope it only gets better... Sushi today can't wait!!

Jaz

Sushi Land

  "Let's go to SushiLand." This was the happiest thing I had heard all day long, considering for the past 12 hours I had been stuck in medical classes, studying, and at work. Mmm some fresh healthy Ebi, and pot stickers, and wasabi, and calamari! Two days left until I leave for L.A. so I was anxious to spend some time with Jazzy and Tj last night after work. Jazzy got home around 8:30ish and unfortunantly SushiLand closed. Ahhhhh Nooooo that bloooooowsss.. Okay new plan..       2 hours later!!! Our plan B had not improved. Sitting at the house still undecided and not wanting to settle for anything less than what we initially wanted in the first place. Our night eventually faded into darkness after that. Tj made plans to go with Allen to the movies. Which is cool because Allen leaves for college soon. (but secretly I DID NOT want him to leave) So just me and my big sister. It eventually got too late and all the good options were closed or soon to be. We settled for a Carl's Jr. run. (sigh) And let's just say that on the way there and back there were some "You shoulda seen it!" and "You would've had to been there," moments. I'll let Jazzy give more details later =] But my oh my the long stressful day turned into a long eventful night. By the time we returned home I no longer wanted my Carl's Jr. even worse than before we left the house. (sigh)   11:37 p.m. and I was in a rush to get home and get some shut eye before having to return to work at 7 the next morning (which is my current..dreadful location). But as I was walking to my car I see an orange sticky note stuck on my window..What the heck is that?  I thought.  Snatching it off my window, worried that it would be a mean hateful note being the "woah is me" person that I suposedly am. But to my surprise it was a..a sweet little happy note. Smiley face included. Tj..awl Tj.   Asking if I got his note later I answered yes..regreting telling him I retrieved it only because if I would have played dumb and pretended that I didn't ever see a note, maybe he would write another one today and then I would secretly have two. =]   Gonna shoot for Sushi Land again today. Have a good day everyone!   Pen  

"Pretty"

What it takes to be beautiful..
To be called pretty..
Do you know what it's like?
Do you know what it means?
To hold such responsibility.
It can be a curse, something that follows you where ever you go,
causing people to stare, to judge, to redicule, as if you weren't.."pretty" in the first place.


Regardless of what everyone thinks or admits to, relationships, any relationship, my relationships
are based on what I look like. Sometimes I hate the way people look at me.
Almost like I'm an alien of some sort. And I have come to realize that as I get older,
it is getting worse.


Having any kind of real friendship with one of the opposite sex,
or slight friendship at all is nearly out of the question. Whether it's the boy
who can't seem to fathom having strictly a friendship based relationship with me, a mother who has
the uneasy feeling of me snatching her son away, my family unable to
comprehend me simply wanting to have a friend in the first place, regardless of what sex they may be, or
surrounding watchers passing the stereotypical judgement on me having a boy that really is just a friend..all because of the way I look, to say the least.


Meeting people who want me around to raise the level of popularity or some type of self-worth.
Don't get me wrong, very much so a complement in many ways, but it's like
they are assigning me some kind of job I never applied for. More awkward responsibility.
And not ever knowing how to respond after the fact.


I am always guilty of everything, even if I'm innocent, people have told me there is no way that I could be innocent. They should have just said "Penelope, your too pretty so your the bad one." I'm exagerating I know, but after so many situation I get caught up in everyday because of "the curse" I always joke about, but now I'm not so sure, it really is making itself real.


In the past 19 years I have only had a couple frienships with females because most don't like me. Why?..the way I look? Purhaps. Whatever it may be that their issue is with me, it is one of the most repetitive things is my life. I have to put up with these monsters persay, in the world as soon as I walk out of my front door. I'm assuming I will for the rest of my life. What would it be like if I put a bag over my head? Would I have the same relationships I do now? The same life even, if I looked different?




There is no escape, and people will always be...people.


Pen

SLightly OFf

Do you ever have those days where you feel like you are forgetting something? Where you go over and over the things you thought needed to get done, but can't quite figure out what is it that you are forgetting? I have had the irritating feeling lingering in my mind all day. This morning I sprung painfully out of bed when I realized I had opened my eyes 48 minutes later than usual, making me late for my morning class. Throwing on whatever was closest, searching for inevitably lost keys, snatching a pair of sunglasses, slipping on sneakers, and rushing out the front door, only to get in line with the rest of the morning trafficers.

I leave for L.A. in less than a week. Overdue vaca time. You would think finding a swimsuit would be easier than it has been the past couple of weeks. I settled for ordering online, praying that it would just happen to fit perfectly. Finally receiving my victoria secret top in the mail today..didn't quite fit right..."whatever, figures". So I continued the search for bottoms today, hoping that the awkwardness from this mornings late rise had passed. Almost every store in the mall had let me down. Wrong sizes, wrong styles, wrong colors..
(sigh)
"Quit being picky Penelope and pick something!" I thought to myself after two hours of searching. How ridiculous.
Finally making up my mind, I found some right sizes. I settled for purple OP bottoms and white one with little pink flowers.
(Hmmm..sigh) Something is still lingering on in the air around me. Something just slightly off about the day.
I KNOW! I hadn't gone on a run today. Maybe running some of the yucky feeling off would help. Hurrying home, and changing into my running attire..I desperately ran out the front door hoping the jog would cure my "slightly off" mood. Half way home I had realized I started getting a side cramp. (which never happens to me)
"CRAP!.. I give up on trying to rid the waking up late curse I have put on myself for the day."
I walked the rest of the way home..scratching my arms frantically from the sweatshirt I had chosen to run in.
"Dang you Chacka."

Thank goodness tomorrow I get to sleep in. L.A. five days and counting..
Tomorrows always looking up..

Pen

The First of Many

What a day

 I had to drag myself out of bed only to realize that I had a pounding headache, the glimpse of joy I did have was the fact that the sun was out and shining brightly no more rain... for now (whoo hoo) Good morning to a wonderful day.

Seeing that big beautiful SUN did brighten up my day and it made me smile and think today is going to be a good day... WRONG... As I'm almost to work literally down the street some guy in a Kia Spectra came out of nowhere and almost killed me!!! I had to swerve and do all kinds of maneuvers to avoid being a tattoo of remembrance on someone’s arm. I made it out of that (barely) only to get to work 5 minutes late. As I'm sitting going through my normal routine of daily duties, I notice myself falling asleep as my boss yells my name

!@#$#@#$%^ I thought for sure I was in trouble... It turns out they wanted me to bring some papers up to the owner of the company, I sighed with relief. The walk outside was good it woke me up for sure. Once I get to the office I start walking upstairs to bring the forms only to be halted and attacked by an animal. (There I again feared my life would be in someone else’s hands)  I slowly walk away hoping it wouldn't chase me!!! Thank goodness it didn't, once again I was able to avoid being hurt. I go back to my desk after such an ordeal and start doing my work trying to avoid falling asleep again, my boss then surprises me and says "lunch is on me today you pick what you want and that's what we will have" you can imagine my excitement  no money out of my pocket whoo hoo!!!! (I chose Pizza Hut Stuffed Crust of Course)

The highlight of the rest of my day was finishing up my work early to be able to just sit and hang out and talk with all of my co-workers as the day ended... Driving home was great not a lot of traffic had the windows down letting the soft cool breeze run through my hair with the sun beaming down to keep me warm... What's in store for tomorrow I have no idea but I can't wait to tackle whatever comes my way. Today was a good Day

Jaz

Dora The Explorer Rain Boots

11:30 P.M. Still raining.

No success today. Why is rain sad?

Some people believe that the rain is

a symbol for cleansing. I think it just

makes everything very...well wet. Although

rain does smell very good and I love being able to

wear my cute rain boots. I really want to get some

Dora the explorer rain boots. =] Maybe I'll hit up

amazon tomorrow if the forcast plays out the

way it did today.

I did get some of my inside "to-do" list items

checked off. 1. Nap Time check. 2. Laundry check.

3. Downloading more music to my ipod. Check. Jewel, T.swift,

the new 413 song thats always stuck in my head, and a

couple of old 90's songs to add the the pod.

These past few months life has been pretty hectic. Not horrible.

Just fast paced and stressful. Luckily, I got a new 9 dollar Biore face wash that

heats up to keep from random zit attacks. I find it very amusing.

Anyways, my point is I should be thankful for this rainy-lazy day

..it's not often that I do get to nap and

just simply listen to music in a comfy pair of pajama shorts and a

sweatshirt. Now that I am older and more so on my own than before

I take a lot forgranted. When I was little I remember on rainy days

dad would let me skip school, he would call in sick, and we would

lay around all day and he would teach me "big kid" games like

cribbage and show me card trick after card trick always giving in

to my "Daddy show me how you did it!!" everytime. I would talk him into

watching movies like The Sound of Music and Chitty Chitty Bang Bang.

Constantly rewinding trying to memorize all the songs. I must have drove him crazy.

But he always did a good job of hiding if it that was the case.

Today would have been a good day to be five again with dad..

Pen

P.S. "..rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens..bright copper kettles..and warm woolen mittens.

Brown paper packages tide up with strings..these are a few of my favorite things...when the dog bites,

when the bee stings..when I'm feeling sad..I simply remember my favorite things..and then I don't feel so bad."

The Rain

Today...

Stayed in bed warm and cozy watching movies as I heard the down pour. A brief brake gave me a little bit of relief as I thought it would stay that way, WRONG down it came again, just as I was hanging out with Jamal. We ran for cover, as we watched it pour.

I'm holding out for tomorrow hoping it will be better...

Jaz

Good Morning, First Morning

Good Morning

 I, as in Penelope, am currently at work.

(Sigh)

Yesterday was so beautiful outside. Sunny..warm, 70ish degrees. This of course led to rambunctious attitudes and then to the Carnival downtown Portland. The zipper, haunted houses, cotton candy, face painting, corn dogs, and 8 dollar giant elephant ears. Funn indeed. Gave me a positive outlook on how today might have..could have been.

Sounding alarm at 6 o'clock this morning, Sunday morning, pouring down shower rain mixed with fog. And if there is such a thing as a carnival hangover, then I believe I have it... (sigh)

The giant elephant ear was completely unnecessary.

BUT I refuse to let the carnival hangover nor the rain persuade my tude for the day.

Let's see today is the perfect setting for..

1. Napping, which I desperately wish I could be doing.

2. A scary movie..its doesn't look like its going to let up anytime soon so maybe several scary movies.

3. Hot Chocolate with giant marshmellows and Texas Holdem

4. Jazzy's sugar cookies

5. Make grilled cheese and tomato soup (okay now I'm just  hungry)

6. Watch Animal Planet with a cozy blanket on the couch

Off work at one today. Hopefully by then things will be looking up..

Pen